What a Difference a Year Can Make...

Yesterday was our church's last day to meet in Lake Highlands High School, so we had a clean up day. We cleaned everything they would possibly let us. Being that I am the accountant, my job was to watch the offering boxes that were sitting out in the lobby while everyone else cleaned. I was a little bummed about my job for the day, but it really ended up being a GREAT morning. I started sitting in my chair reading a book, but ended up getting to chat with people all morning as they walked to and from their cleaning stations. It hit me later yesterday as I was sitting thinking about the morning, that God has brought me SO far in the last year. A year ago, I would have been terrified to sit in that lobby. I would have been worried what people thought of me and if they were wondering what I was doing sitting there.

I also realized that God has answered my prayer, beyond my expectations, for a bigger community of friends here in Dallas. It was truly amazing. He has provided new friends for me in Student Ministries, with the girls at work, and from my Brazil trip. It was refreshing to me to look at all the people that God has placed in my life since I started working at Watermark last year.

Not that working here has been perfect, it's a job, it's definitely not perfect. But working here, first of all, has allowed me to slow down my life enough to see some of the things that God really wanted to change about me. He has let me see more of who I am in Him, and in doing that, a lot of my insecurity has been stripped away. He allowed me to see my need for community, and provided in amazing ways. It's like I'm comfortable with who I am for the first time in a long time.

I'm not sure any of that makes sense, but it has been so amazing to see what God can do when I open myself up to His plans for me, and stop trying to control my life on my own. He is good!